"I just wanted to tell you a little bit about what the Way of the Masters course is doing for me.  We have only had two classes and I am already so excited I can barely stand it!!  I would like to tell you why I am so excited and this email might get quite lengthy so hopefully you have time. 

I grew up in a Christian home and had always believed that if you believe in Jesus and were sorry for your sins you would go to heaven, regardless of repenting or living for God.  People would be surprised by the life I have lead, because I just don't seem like "that kind of person".  While in high school and college I rebelled against everyone and everything.  I have done every drug a person can do, I have lied, stolen, ect...  I met a man and became pregnant within the first month of our relationship.  We got married and moved to his home state of Colorado.  When I had my son, it changed my life!  I loved this baby so much.  He was my life and even though my marriage was hard (we barely knew each other), we stuck it out.  I then became pregnant again and had another little boy.  I never thought that I could love another child so much!  But this love was unending.  I lived for my boys.  Everything I did, I did for them.  My second son, was a mother's dream!  He preferred me to any
one, he was funny, mischievous, wiggly, ect. (Not to say my first wasn't of course!)

One Sunday morning I woke up just like any other morning and since my littlest one hadn't woken up yet I took a shower and then went to check on him.  I walk into his room to find him face down in his crib, dead.

In that instant, my life spiraled down and crashed in a despair so deep, I never knew a person could survive such a thing.  As time went on, I got worse and worse.  I was drinking heavily, taking anti-depressants, sleeping pills, and anti anxiety pills by the truck load.  I tried to commit suicide several times.  The last time I tried, I decided that this was it.  I was going to do this once and for all.  When my husband found me I was already cold and unconscious.  I spend two days in intensive care, and when I was coherent, I found I could not see very well and I couldn't move my body.  I thought that God had paralyzed me for what I had done.  I did recover, very fast over the next week.  I had to have my mother come and take care of me because I was hallucinating so bad I couldn't think straight. (because of the amount of drugs I had taken)

After I recovered, I was terrified.  I knew that I had come very close to going to hell, I could feel it when I almost died.  I knew that God had saved me from death but I didn't know why.  So, I started reading my Bible and really repented of my sins and MY EYES WERE SUDDENLY OPEN to what salvation REALLY meant!  I saw the announcement for The way of the Master in the church bulletin and I knew I needed to take it.  I thought I was taking it, just to get more knowledge and grow in my Christianity.  But now I know this is why God has spared my life!

I am naturally very shy, but after reading about Moses, and Jeremiah I realized that it has nothing to do with me!  I am just a tool, for God.  He does it!  I am so humbled by this opportunity, and an almost embarrassed by my inadequacy for God. 

Thank you, thank you, thank you!!!!  For doing what God has called you to do!  Thank you for helping me to do that too! 

He is my focus, He is my salvation, He is the beginning and the end, His does all things for His Glory, He is faithful, just, loving, compassionate, THE LIST NEVER ENDS!!!

Praise the Lord Jesus Christ for He alone is worthy! "